= released =

Musical meanderings. Restless tampering. Pull this cord. Push that switch. I’m told to change even if I haven’t asked. Denial is useless. Energy is wasted. Discipline, I’ve forgotten who you are. Will you remember me when I look for you again? A little searching maybe? I don’t remember your face but maybe you’ll remember mine and we can become friends again. I miss you. I miss having someone to say I miss you to. I’m a sap for denying my sappiness. Too many things I’ve hidden away. Lost in the dust of ill begotten shadows. There used to be more lights in here, but all the bulbs burned out due to lack of use. I guess we shall just have to remedy that. Excitement hovers just out of reach. It’s too bad I’ve waited so long to reach out. This is all just a whimsical query into the unused parts of my heart. Hinges creak and strain.

I’ve searched for comfort in all the wrong places.
Can you help me clear away all the traces.
Of hope in things that clip your wings.
And thoughts battered by real world chatter.
Oh give me a song that’ll move me along.
Beating a breast that’s already bruised.
And running away from the things I’ve abused.
Memories and plans that got out of hand.
One day it breaks leaving dust in its wake.
Pulling along all the things I’ve done wrong.
Can’t write a word without being assured.
That you’ll not take my words to heart.
And suffer inside like the things I hide.
Teach me again from what I ran.
Moving away unable to stay.
I miss that sound when someone’s around.
Who’ll listen all day to what my breath tries to say.
Short words seem best when put to the test.
I’ll try this again and hope to win.
Unafraid to say that help's on the way.
I’ve been on my own and felt so alone.
I’ll take the hand that’s outside my plan.
Let it show why my feet are so slow to go.
To follow a path that’s outside of wrath.
And outside of what dreams my poor mind will breed.
Lead.