I took a break from the usual reading this weekend and watched several movies instead. Among them I saw; X-Men 2, Bruce Almighty, Underworld, and Dreamcatcher. Pretty good movies if you asked me, Dreamcatcher freaked me out the most. I decided to take a drive after it. That was tonight, or this morning rather.
I began driving and after some deliberation, decided upon a Bjork concert I had recently acquired. The concert was from the National Opera House in London. Wonderful.
I then decided a drink of water seemed like a good idea and headed for Wolfforth where I could get some purified water easily enough. The point wasn’t the water. The drive was what mattered. The distance and thoughts between the distance. I saw a moon surrounded by the silhouette of a ring. I wished I had someone to share the beautiful sight with. Then I realized it wasn’t mine to share. It was someone else’s to share with me and shared it was.
I realized that the repeat button on my cd player was diminishing my appreciation of time. How significant or beautiful can the music be when I hear it 10 times in a row? I realized laughter in a true form was slowly being restored to me. I realized that this is an amazing gift. I wished I could laugh with tears sliding off my chin in the middle of a service in thankfulness. I realized that I could. I hoped that I would. I saw the insignificance of mine own “struggles” in the big picture. I realized this life I have is not without purpose and direction. I realized that there is latitude in tha purpose. I realized that I will do many things in the time I have been allowed to share in. I realized that this time wasn’t for me. I realized that logic minus the heart is no place I want to be. I realized my mind couldn’t understand my heart and I realized that this is fine. I realized that heart without a mind is running full speed ahead with my eyes closed. I realized that I have sight for a reason. I realized that reason is seductive. I realized that I am on a path. I realized that I cannot see the end or the middle. I realized that this is adventure. I realized that I am not scared. I realized that fight or flight leaves out the other options. I realized that a person will die trying to please everyone. This is of no account. I realized that the clouds are breaking and the moon is bright. I realized that the moon is underappreciated. I realized that we are like the moon. Reflections. I realized that no analogy can describe the indescribable. I realized that I don’t want to. I realized that I know the way. I realized that I know the truth. I realized that I know the life. Now, to grasp hold.
I began driving and after some deliberation, decided upon a Bjork concert I had recently acquired. The concert was from the National Opera House in London. Wonderful.
I then decided a drink of water seemed like a good idea and headed for Wolfforth where I could get some purified water easily enough. The point wasn’t the water. The drive was what mattered. The distance and thoughts between the distance. I saw a moon surrounded by the silhouette of a ring. I wished I had someone to share the beautiful sight with. Then I realized it wasn’t mine to share. It was someone else’s to share with me and shared it was.
I realized that the repeat button on my cd player was diminishing my appreciation of time. How significant or beautiful can the music be when I hear it 10 times in a row? I realized laughter in a true form was slowly being restored to me. I realized that this is an amazing gift. I wished I could laugh with tears sliding off my chin in the middle of a service in thankfulness. I realized that I could. I hoped that I would. I saw the insignificance of mine own “struggles” in the big picture. I realized this life I have is not without purpose and direction. I realized that there is latitude in tha purpose. I realized that I will do many things in the time I have been allowed to share in. I realized that this time wasn’t for me. I realized that logic minus the heart is no place I want to be. I realized my mind couldn’t understand my heart and I realized that this is fine. I realized that heart without a mind is running full speed ahead with my eyes closed. I realized that I have sight for a reason. I realized that reason is seductive. I realized that I am on a path. I realized that I cannot see the end or the middle. I realized that this is adventure. I realized that I am not scared. I realized that fight or flight leaves out the other options. I realized that a person will die trying to please everyone. This is of no account. I realized that the clouds are breaking and the moon is bright. I realized that the moon is underappreciated. I realized that we are like the moon. Reflections. I realized that no analogy can describe the indescribable. I realized that I don’t want to. I realized that I know the way. I realized that I know the truth. I realized that I know the life. Now, to grasp hold.
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